I went for a job interview. Shhhh, don't tell anyone. I don't want to jinx it, but I just had to tell someone.
The interview went really well. I was composed and confident and sounded like I knew my stuff (which I do). It's an absolutely remarkable company and I can't stand how much I WANT the job! It'll be a couple of weeks before I know anything, though. That's two weeks to obsess over every nuance of the interview and minutely re-examine every single one of my answers, searching for some obvious faux pas that I must have made. I like to torture myself that way.
After the interview was over, a totally supressed memory popped into my head. It was of a job interview I had a very long time ago that I had completely forgotten about.
I was probably 22 years old, fresh out of school, and I applied for a position at a law firm or a courthouse or something like that (I don't really remember that detail). The interviewer explained to me that the nature of their business would mean that I would be exposed to some rather graphic and disturbing legal cases. He wanted to know if I had a problem with that.
Remembering my brash, foolish answer still makes me burn with embarrassment, even though it happened almost 20 years ago. I actually looked the interviewer in the eye and glibly replied, "I just love reading novels about serial killers and stuff like that, so I don't think it'll bother me at all."
Needless to say, I didn't get the job.
I'm not sure why I flashed back to that particular episode, since it was obviously quite effectively hidden in my subconscious for a very long time, or why it would pop into my head on the heels of such an awesome interview. Maybe it was to remind me how far I've come in my career since my youth?
Or maybe it was just my way of torturing myself a little more. *sigh*
Even if I don't get the job, I was at least able to prove to myself that I can put myself out there again. It felt really good to take the first positive step out of my career rut.
Now I just need to keep on walking.
Thursday, August 27, 2009
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6 comments:
BEST WISHES!!
I really hope something happens for you career-wise, ASAP!!
Thanks, Liv. You've inspired me a lot. You shared your journey and made me want that kind of happiness too!
Good luck! I hope you get it! I just started a job on Monday ... I hope you get to experience this too!
Yea! for Andi - you rock. I'm sure if this one doesn't work out its because there is something even better coming.
Thanks. You're all so sweet.
And to Teena in Toronto, congratulations!!
Good luck!
I still torture myself about interview embarrassments from way back, too. I think you're right... It's a way to remember how much experience we've gained and how much better we are at pretty much everything now.
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